What made you stop being an addict?
Last Updated: 29.06.2025 05:43
Around age 9 I discovered pornography through my uncle, he had left the CD in the video player in the night after enjoying himself.
The harder I tried, the worse it became. I could get angry with myself and go about 3 days without it but when I relapse, I can do 3 in a day. And the subsequent days; it's just me getting drowned in the rabbit hole.
Oh, and everyday I woke up tired đŤ I never slept early too. My mental health was nothing to write home about.
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I remember sitting on the bed and smiling and that was when it hit me that I have successfully masturbated.
I made sure I downloaded every video that was nice for me. This took almost the whole day.
I didn't even start counting the days because I didn't really believe I would get this far.
I knew about masturbation but I didn't actually think of doing it but one day, on my bed when I was preparing to go to school I was watching pornography and something just came in mind; why don't you rob your dick with your hand?
I just finished watching the best of the best p*rn videos on the planet. Now there's nothing else to look for on p*rn sites again.
I secretly kept on watching and watching until I got 19. At this time, I had started feeling the urge to ejaculate as I was watching the pornography.
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There were times I was counting the days when I'm clean. But now I don't, because I got tired of counting and relapsing and starting all over again.
I remember I once did it in my classroom at dawn. I did it in the hospital's washrooms. I did it in the lab where I work; both daytime and midnight.
I got tired of always breaking the promises I made to myself.
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No self esteem. No confidence. No ambition. Just dreams.
All I knew was that, I couldn't masturbate without p*rn. I was first getting the urge to watch p*rn, while watching, I would now feel like masturbating.
This was February 2019.
Just keep trying
I always wished they would sit inappropriately or the wind would blow up their dress so I can see things.
I know some people masturbate and they don't have the problems I went through.
I did it in my administrator's office.
I started rubbing it and I liked how I was feeling so I kept on doing it faster and EUREKA, sperms came out of my dick.
Now I don't wait to be talked to before I respond. I talk when I think I'm supposed to.
But how was I going to do it when everything I knew wasn't working? I didn't know
Remember, if nothing changes, nothing changes.
It didn't feel great after ejaculating but hey, who cares about feelings?
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And I can also talk to them now.
But for me, I would say RUN away from it
So I thought had unlocked a new potential in life. I was doing it even if I don't feel the urge. I forced the urge to come by watching pornography.
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I knew something had to be done about my wasting existence because if nothing changes, then nothing changes.
Am I totally free? I don't know đ
I so badly wanted to f*uk a girl, yet I was so shy of girls. I never wanted to meet anyone. I always wanted to hide behind the phone and text.
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So I'm still hanging on this lie.
Now I have the mental fortitude to face life's every day battles.
Was quitting worth the effort? At least for my mental health, it's a billion times worth it.
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A couple of months later I started hating it and regretting after every session. Yet, I couldn't stop.
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Have I stopped seeing girls as sex objects? Not entirely, I still want to f*ck some of them.
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I don't know if all addictions are like this đ¤
Do I wake up everyday with lots of energy? No but that's because I have a health problem, which is a story for another day.
I saw every girl or woman as a sex object including kid girls. There was no way I would look at a woman and not think of f*cking her.
It took me days to finish watching them. Finally I decided to go to the washroom to do The Last Fap.
And I DID IT EVERYDAY
Now how do you quit your addiction?
Is masturbation and p*rn bad?
There were times I could go 3 months without watching p*rn or masturbating but somehow I always came back to it.
Now I know I have all the nice videos on my phone, the rest I don't have, are not nice. So I had to start watching them one after the other. Some of them were even 2 hours long but I made sure I watched every little bit of it.
I did it in my room. I did it in my washroom. I did it in school in the washrooms.
And these were just the act and not the mental and social problems associated with addiction.
I went on my favourite site and started scrolling through my favourite categories; petite girls, sleeping girls, Japanese girls, Japanese mom, Japanese wife, massage, forced, in the bus, gangb*ng, Muslim girls, ebony, student and teacher, in the classroom, curvy, African, etc
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I went there early in the morning trying to watch a movie and I found the CD inside the video player so I decided to watch what was on it and that was the beginning of the life I never wanted.
I did it while watching my sister. I did it while touching my sister đ I did it while watching my landlord's daughter.
So all I had to do was to find a way to trick my dirty brain to think that p*rn isn't nice.